RIP ..

Screams, fights.... it's never alright
How he ignored you,
& you pushed him out of your life.

Your fucking cursed, you broke down the glass,
It broke so hard, it left no scar
Yet it cut you so deep, now you cant sleep.

The day his father died,
for a second it stole your breath away,
You couldnt do anything besides live a lie.
He never even had the chance to say goodbye

And everydays pain brings you more hatred
How you seem so lost,
and suddenly everything he owned seemed sacred.

The way you locked yourself up pretending it was nothing
while i cried and cried..
you simply hating. Remiscing.

You gotta let it go and stop blamin'
There's nothing you can do to stop the poison
You aint gonna let anyones coffin rest on your conscience.


To my Dear cousin..may your Dad's soul rest in peace :

Come back

Never felt so empty before,
Lookin' around for you ..
You dont see me smile anymore

Mama listened to me talk,
Every day of her life...
Since the day i could walk

"I dont hear your voice honey "
You dont get it, i want him back
Watch me burn money !

Watch me destroy something called 'Home'
Because without my love
I just ... i feel so alone.

Im going insane, someone help me drive away the pain
Im watching seasons change ,
Im taking in the pain.. over and over again

How am i supposed to move on and forget you?
When you were part of every single part of my life
Now tell me how the fuck am i gonna make it through?

With you, ill stand
Without you i fall..
Give me back my love..
'Cuz with him i had it all

[3mar ..<3]

Story of her Life

I put up with it for too long now
How i raise my head up,
No... it aint down.
And no, i wont cry...
until reality hits...and its just another lie

I dont want to love,
i dont wanna try,
Cuz i dont want to feel that emptiness
Until the day i die...

I feel this hole punched right through my chest
you werent meant to be like the rest..
You were meant to last,
Now she died an Outkast

Story of her life,
So blunt it hit me like a knife.
With every second that i put a smile on my face,
i gave myself a reason to laugh

Because the earth wasnt meant to stop spinning,
You should know by now Lifes a game,
You gotta try to keep winnin
Before they black out your name.

Right before my heart made a choice,
this was meant to be another try..
Heart is striving to hear your voice..
Despite those promises that are now a lie.

Our Game

I know the game like i wrote the rules,
you sit and remenisce on those lost memories that died within you,
you waited for her phone call everyday of your life,
Day and Night,
Like a gun waiting to be cocked
fighting on the boat that rocked
it never happened...
the ground would BREAK before ANY shit happened...
i made it without them..
Like a bullet that shoots through your heart
cuz this is how it was fromthe very start
from the moment the bird spread its wings it flew through the storm,
It made it through the rain,
Just like i faught to keep my strength with every pain
Lets take it back before he broke my heart
Before any of this shit was put to start
right before the devil took control of my soul
and fucked up my mind,
like a baby kicking its mothers womb,
just waiting for the right time
This game we play.. is nothing new to YOU
I learn from watching YOU
Take it back to the night where 8albii 6aa7
3ashan it7areet 5asertak .. and i actually thought you cared
The truth cant rott within you
i can see it in your eyes
If only you knew how i forced myself to live a lie
Law bes it3arf kam tsawe fe galbi chaan mamasheit w 5aleetni..