You got me flying solo <3

Let down your guard baby, show me your real colours.

Together we can fill life into a rainbow..

That shines in through rain, fighting through its way with every pain.

We've both got the symptoms of a broken heart, but did i ever raise my voice...?

Forget my physical pain .. simply rejoice, 

because at the moment its my emotional pain that burns its way through my hearts flames, you light me up like flaming alcohol, i feel the adrenaline running through my veins.

Simply driving me insane.

This heart of mine is going hollow... u got me flyin' solo.

Put your trust me, i'll always be more than you expect from me...

since the day i walked away... theres nothing you can see...

you've just been blindfolded, simply.

How many times are you gonna watch my heart break, each and everytime i allege its a mistake...

But there's nothing i'll ever gain, it's all left for you to take.

Cuz when you left, you left me flyin' solo.        

Obsessed with the thought of you.

Obsessed with the thought of you, the pain just grew and grew.

I don't know how to avoid you, i was right.. i did eventually bump into you today.. funny thing is, i thought i was gonna be OK with it, but i was WRONG!

I wish i could have quit you, i wish i never missed you, or told u that i loved u, everytime i kissed you.

It's like you don't know me anymore, and ever glance reminds me of a painful memory.

Yeah, that night where you zoomed passed me and yelled "I love you" ..  I believed you, i Did :'(

&& That was a mistake, i wont be harsh and say YOU were too. 

Being there, at the same place as you, WITH my boyfriend.. ouch, that must of hurt yeah? It probably makes you burn to learn im with another man. 

No, it's not easy to forget you, yea its hard to neglect you, especially after all the SHIT we pulled through. 

I guess im obliged to say, i want..uhh NEED* to forget youu.

The Coffee's Not Strong Enough

He grabbed me backwards and forced my body close to his, my heart was racing..

He could hear my heart beat. I felt like i was gonna melt in his arms...

He slowly put his arm around my waist.. && leaned towards me and kissed me.. the way he put his hand underneath my shirt and touched me, i was a doll in his arms. He slowly caressed me.. i felt his cold hands run up and down.. with every touch i felt safe..

The way he wrapped his arms around me & handled me with grace, i was the picture.. he was the frame. Distance would kill.. his smell would linger on my clothes.. and his touch.. i felt it every second i thought of him.

I felt light headed, these thoughts shot like speeding cars.

The papercuts, the cheating lovers. The coffee's NEVER strong enough.. some people consider it as bad luck.. But we got it all, i wont lose my head, i wont kill myself.

Cuz none of us are angels, && u know i love you yea ?

Sleeping pills, they cut me off completely, this numbness will consume you limb from limb.

Will get in your head and confuse you.

Make you...  The result of the shit you went through !

His beautiful lie.. 

I was fighting through every RHYME.

Typing up every LINE.

Glistening in the cold sweat, of guilt. I've watched you slowly winding down for two years now, you cant keep on like this..

Nows a bad time as any... The clocks have stopped, my heart beats dropped. && i lay here with him now.. it's not you anymore.. We takin' it back one step at a time..

Where you'll be the prince and ill be your princess.

There there baby... It's just text book stuff, its in the ABC of growing up..

Now now darling...YOU dont kill yourself... cuz none of us were angels... and you know i'll always love you, yeah ? ..

He wont show up..

Im writing this now, cuz i couldn't be arsed to do it last night. 

So i went skating yesterday, for the first time in a LONG time, daym.. i used to go there twice a week... and now.. NEVER.

I guess i know why i stopped, i was avoiding you. I had a feeling i was gonna bump into you, i kept turning back to look for you, you always were there. ALWAYS. 

Now here's the thing... i DIDN'T want to see you ... i HAD to.

I was so irritated.. so annoyed. You've blindly been pushed aside, i know you love me. I know u do, and im sorry i cant please you. The thought of you hurts, you're a painful memory.

I don't want to see you, I DONT. 

Ouch.

Yes, here i am, feeling like a complete douche-bag.

Bored as F U C K.

:) So so, i decided to make my own blogspot.. where i will.."HOPEFULLY" post my thoughts && my poems.

I have this thing for writing. I adore poetry.

Ciao.