Falling Again.

The way my heart skips a beat everytime you send me a message, is just wow.

It's Beauty. It's Grace.

How a little pettle danced in your palm.... you never crushed it, you let me float around the surface, yet never intended on hurting me. What are the odds?

Watching those words flow from your lips.... My soul dances within me.

Your Perfect.

Back then, you loved me .. i was just too blind to see it& now after our embrace, i saw everything... a beautiful memory, and that touch.. was irreplacable.

I couldn't step away. I didn't want to let go.

We'd stay up till the crack of dawn, & baby im wide awake 'cause every message you sent me carried a smil. I loved you. I still Love you.

But... She's in the way, and the closer i get to you.. I break, even harder.

Knowing she's the first thought in your mind hurts, baby its fact.

Back then, when you told me you loved me... i was afraid of saying 'yes' . Afraid of losing you.

Afraid of LOVE itself.

You never hurt me, atleast not intentionally.

Insomnia

The road should rise to meet you, but i always watched you fall and blame it on the alcohol.

You can slur your dream world but at this hour you always speak of the future tense, your not ready for plans. Your afraid.

Your favourite songs been skipped on the record needle, you forced yourself to listen as the next song played, it made you scream.. it ripped you inside and out, the words... the beautiful lyrics vanish into the mainstream.

Subconciousness, where virtual minds are torn apart at words that forgot their meaning.. a LONG time ago. Maybe you can carve a heart from your desk, it will be red ochre, it wont need paint or a disguise to cover the wounds that are immortal.

The image that reflects, leaves you in vain. Who are you ? What difference have you made ?

I put the mirror down & there i am, Feelingless.

I miss you

It’s been 2 years now, I’ve watched myself break… & every thought led me straight to you..
The way we laughed, stayed up all night … the way you made me smile
I’d laugh out loud all night..
I’d even get my ass kicked for that… but the best part was I didn’t give a shit..every second with u was worth it,
I sit and talk to u for hours, we’d stay up texting all night…. Those long silences over the fone.. id just listen to you breathe… you meant everything to me
You were my first… and I never loved anyone the same.. my heart wont open again..
No, your not perfect, we didn’t do anything special together, but what we had was extraordinary…
And what made us so strong, was the gift of me being able to see u perfectly within my eyes
You were my everything,
I dream about you almost every night .. I want you..
I’ve fallen so many times without your support … remember in English class .. when u saved me minutes before I hit the ground.. Yes, I DID believe I was going to die
I wanna travel with you, I wanna go down those icy slopes with you…. I want u to take me on a never-ending adventure…
I wanna bungee jump with you…
I remember texting u when im in the shower… I couldn’t get my mind of you ..
Even when I knew things weren’t gonna be the same… I never lost faith in you..
Cuz I knew, If I couldn’t be with u in reality… id rather live my whole life a dream…
Either way im happy with you, because you’re the only one who made me smile from the bottom of my heart … giggling 24/7 … SQUEAKING… I’d never felt so alive….

I'd do anything just to have you back!