How could you be so heartless ?

The second i realised i was making a mistake, i turned around to stop you, but it was too late...

How can u walk away like that, how can u be okay with this ? Weren't you the one who said " I cant hurt you, my heart wont let me " Didn't YOU say i was the one, how can you move on like that ? How can you be okay with this ... I need you.. like a heart needs a beat..
But.. when a heart breaks, it dont break even
I got the pressure.. i felt the guilt, I felt the pain..
When im wide awake, you have no trouble sleeping.. Your best days, become my worst
Your waiting to find a girl to put you first..

You got my heart and her heart & none of the pain, you turned around and walked away while i took the blame
You moved on while im still greivin' cuz when a heart breaks it dont break even.

Just you && me

Dedicated : To the baby sister i lost ...
Constantly thinking about you.
Do you know..
That if only i got a glimpse of what you would look like, i wouldn't take my eyes off you
No one would take you away from me.. i would never leave you
I always wondered about how you'd walk and talk, your amazing baby smell... and soft touch, your beautiful smile, .. an angel with daddys eyes :)
I longed for a miracle.. a dream... and thats where you walked in, and when i lost you, it felt like everything was taken away from me.
I need you, you made me look past my pain.
I would never have to go through any of that shit ever again.
You would be the biggest change in my life, nothing else would matter
It's just you ..&& me.. and all other people
with nothing to prove and nothing to lose...
It's just you && me ... and all other people...
I don't know why, i cant keep my mind of ov you ..
Cuz nothing else matters, when you fill the hallow thats inside...
When your wounds start to heal ... and ur flaws start to hide

Isolated && Empty

This is not who i am, who have i become ?
I can't go to bed at night with an empty mind, with no doubts or fears.
Everyones cornering me in
I've put myself in the middle of bricked walls... i TRUSTED you..
&& I Simply can't break through, and the harder i try to push them down & force these barriers to break, i end up hurting myself .. repeating the same mistake.
I feel isolated and empty.
My conscience fights with me day and night.. i can't put up with the fight.
I keep trying & trying but i wont succeed, it's like cutting open the wound to watch it bleed.
When was the last time you listened? When did i learn to lose my inner voice, the one i used to hear before my life made a choice
The one thing i had, the person who guided me and gave me hope, was taken away from me & now im left with nothing. What am i left to fight for ? IT'S OVER.

The memories ease the pain inside...
Now i know why.

I'd Loved you, For Whoever You Would Have Been

Dedicated : to the baby sister i'd lost..
Please accept my apologies, wonder what u would have been..
Perhaps a little angel ? Or angel of sin..
Little girls heart filled with innocense, She's got nothing to hide...
With beautiful brown eyes ..
I lost you before u were 2 months..
No-one knew till ur remains started to flood
You never had the chance to even open your eyes, sometimes i wonder ..as a fetus if u faught for your life
I dreamed about u everyday,
Scared that i'd lose another again
Constantly blaming myself for putting my mum in pain
Knowing you existed felt like a dream
Just know, i'd love you for whoever you would have been
I have no reason to be angry with god..
You life being taken away meant that you wouldn't have to go through good OR bad,
You wouldn't have even had the chance to meet dad.